february ... come what may
in addition to further talk about a fair trade coffee shop in Three Rivers and community living opportunities, this month will see two new issues of catapult, the first major World Fare-sponsored event, trips to Illinois and Pennsylvania, an article for Comment--perched at the top of the month, overlooking the vast 29 (now 27) days ahead, i feel somewhat overwhelmed. how will i reach the horizon of March and successfully hit all of the necessary stops along the way?
all of our various tasks and activities are very exciting and i have the sense of moving in the right direction, but i also constantly sense my inadequacy. my mind seems weak, my prayer life insufficient, my meditation random, and my work less than excellent. the struggle for balance is rewarded with blank spaces barely long enough for me to catch my breath.
our constant desire and prayer is for more help in this work, for the growth of this community of Kingdom visionaries. the ideas are there; the time and money are not. and as much as we long for these things so we can move forward, we are aware of a thousand reasons they are not given.
it's just that, sometimes, i'm so tired.